right on sisterhood

Hah  - I finally found a group that I belong to - I am a savisister!

www.savistsisters.com. 

Not to discount the medical benefits of this device, but I highly doubt that it will be comfortable and I can go on with normal life.

I am betting (altho I haven't read them all) - that there will not be one comment left on this website that is negative - hmmm, website is sponsored by manufacturer.

Having said that - maybe once it's over, I will also be all aglow (maybe from the radiation?) and have wonderful things to say about this device.  The medical benefits of this device over 30 days of non targetted radiation treatment are undisputed, and I am very grateful for the technology that makes this possible, but you can't make me believe that this horribly invasive procedure will not shake me up physically as well as mentally.  Just like the last 2 surguries, they have probably saved my life, but it hasn't been easy to recover - each time is harder.

 I will be walking around with 6 tubes sticking out of an open wound on my right breast for at least 7 days, twice daily shots of radiation,  2 hours a day of ct scans , trying to work 8 hours a day and take at least marginal care of my dogs,my house, (and myself) and bonus feature, no showers for the entire time. 

On the website it states that seepage and drainage are normal - how ominous does that sound? 

If I make it through this, it should teach me a lesson - it's sort of like a far side cartoon without the caption - what does it all mean?

I am tired of being painful, tired of trying to tell everyone I'm ok, when I am so clearly - not.  And most of all, every time my body starts to heal, there is someone waiting in the wings to cut it open again.

I don't know when enough is enough, everyone is different, I am close.